“I have these mood swings. One minute I’m full of energy and the next I’m radio silent. People say I tend to overthink things, which makes it hard for me to form relationships. I do trust people. I just don’t open up that easily. But I’m working on it. I even met someone lately and we’re doing great. He understands my roller coaster of feelings. Maybe I’ve been looking for stability. I went through some serious stuff back in Morocco, where I’m from. When my dad lost his job it hit us pretty hard financially. What’s worse, some friends or family started treating us differently. So my perspective in life changed and it gave me this drive to be successful. Plus attitudes toward women can be a little outdated there. Don’t get me wrong, I love my country. But if I tell people about my career aspirations, I get this feeling they’re judging me for not thinking about marriage at my age. And once in school, I kept failing a class because the teacher didn’t approve of the way I dressed. The teacher didn’t think it was normal behavior to not wear a hijab. Some of these unfortunate events were part of the reason why I left. Now I have a job that I like. I’m also in the process of self-discovery. Guess I just need to stop overthinking about what’s next. I’m always trying to outdo myself.”

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