***日本語は下記をご覧下さい***
“After having a miscarriage, we decided to try again and now here’s our feisty little one. He’s only six months old but he’s already bigger than your average Japanese baby. Once he learned how to crawl, he started leaving a trail of destruction at home. But he brings so much joy to us, which is great because my pregnancy was not easy at all. You know all these pregnant women on TV or Instagram with perfect lives, looking all radiant, doing sports, rubbing their belly while having a cup of decaf tea, and having a blast with friends at their baby shower? It was the complete opposite for me. Complications after complications, sudden bursts of emotions, nurses offering help because they were worried about my mental health but couldn’t communicate in English. Then I’d hear whispers from them about me gaining more weight than Japanese women. Well guess what, I’m from Germany so we’re not exactly the same. And our parenting style is sometimes different too. But everything’s fine now. Thankfully, my husband is really supportive. He’s a great dad to our son. Although sometimes I feel so alone in Japan. At least my brother and his girlfriend, who had their second baby 10 days before ours, share the joys of parenthood with us even though they’re miles away.”

流産の後もう一度チャレンジすることに決めて、それで元気なこの子が生まれたの。六カ月なのに、もう日本人の平均的な赤ちゃんより大きくなってるわ。ハイハイを覚えてから家の中をめちゃめちゃにし始めたけど、私たち夫婦にたくさんの喜びを与えてくれている。素晴らしいことよね。だって妊娠中は本当に大変だったんだから。テレビとかインスタによく出てるでしょ、完璧な生活を送ってキラキラしてる妊婦さんたち。スポーツしたり、お腹をなでながらデカフェの紅茶を飲んだり、出産前パーティーで友達と楽しい時間を過ごしたり。私はその正反対だったわ。混乱の連続で、感情が突然爆発したりして。看護師さんたちが私の精神状態を心配して助けてくれようとしたけど、英語ではコミュニケーションできないの。で、私が日本人の女性より太ってきているって、ひそひそ話をされてるのを聞いたわ。まあ私はドイツ出身だから、当然身体的に違うのよね。子育てのやり方にも違いがあるわ。でも今は全部大丈夫。ありがたいことに、夫はとても協力的で、息子に対してすごく良い父親なの。時々私は日本で孤独に感じることもあるけどね。でも少なくとも、私の兄とそのパートナーは、遠く離れた所で親としての喜びを私たちと共有しているわ。向こうは私たちの10日前に二人目が生まれたから。

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